{look!}VERTIGOCLAN TERRA{the sun!}

[LYNX ♥]

The big tom smiled his thanks, instead of saying so. All Lostdesire would ever need to know was glimmering in his big, kit-like forest green eyes. He really liked this she-cat. The real one not 'lostdesire'. There was plenty of desire, it was in the air all around them, as the rain streaked from the sky, it was just now he noticed, and looked up, and laughed gleefully. Suddenly he'd completely forgotten about Lilythorn, but not he thought of her now. Grief poured down harder than the rain, glee sunk away. What was he supposed to do? He didn't love Lilythorn. This felt much too much like 'InstaLove' as he'd grown to call it. When a cat said they loved another, and the other was forced to reply, for what else was there to do? Northwind shuddered. He would not be pulled in, but how could he break the deputy's heart? All his life he wanted to be leader, so come Lilythorn's time to decide a deputy, who would she choose?

[lily ♫]

Lilythorn sighed. "I miss you so much Chasmfang." she meowed to the black cat that walked only in her dreams now. She closed her eyes, fighting tears. "The lilies on the water calm me, but then I see the thorns. Endlessly piercing my heart. Never to love again." she mewed, speaking her mind out loud. She opened her eyes and headed back to camp, her thoughts and memories clinging to Chasmfang and the time before he died. How could I have been so STUPID?! she yelled at herself in her mind. I can't believe all I've put Northy through... I just want to be loved, by anyone. Anywhere. I miss you, Chasmfang. I will never forget you. She looked over her shoulder once more, looking at Northwind with love for him. But this time, it was only a friendly love. Like a brother. She padded softly into camp, Chasmfang remaining the only cat she ever truly loved.

xoxo Lilythorn to Camp

[LYNX ♥]

3: He could never win if he tried.

Northwind hardly noticed Lilythorn's departure, but no tears were left, and when he caught the look in her aqua teal eyes just before she slipped away. It was mourning, loving, and... approval? No. She was broken, and he was broken, and Losty was broken. StarClan this was fun. The only cats who got out clean were, even it hurt to repeat their names in his mind; Radienteclipse and Emeraldfire. He could never see them again and be happy. Rain pelting down, Northwind turned to Lostdesire and smiled. "Let's dance through the rain." He purred, bounding away, twirling and skipping, he paused in a rocky clearing and awaited his love to catch up.

[leafy]

lostdesire loved how northy's eyes looked right now, like a kit's, so warming. she let out a purr, until she barely heard lilythorn's words. poor deputy, it wasn't fair for her. but, somehow lostdesire knew it would all fall into place for lilythorn too. it just wasn't time yet. by the look in his eyes, northwind felt the same way. she grinned, revealing pointed teeth, and watched as he twirled, rather spazzily, through the rain. she twirled after him, her dusky brown pelt dripping from all the rain that was falling. this was the life, it was perfect. she tripped and tumbled into northwind, after recovering, lostdesire looked up at him, her eyes glowing with laughter. "Oops![/i] lostdesire purred, her amber eyes no longer cold, they were now glowing with contentment.

[LYNX ♥]

Northwind let out a thunderous boom of laughter, deep, throaty, real. Massive yet graceful paw left the earth only to be dragged back down again, landing in the dirty puddle of rain. This leap caused the mud to spray everywhere, including himself and Lostdesire. Gleefully, he tumbled away again, trolloping and dashing, dancing and twirling. The big warrior rejoiced the strange bonding moment, between he and the one he'd care for forever. She'd have his kits one day and they would live and die together, these thoughts romped through his mind, disappearing when she came back into his vision. All he could think was love. They could laugh together, not worry about a thing. "Lostdesire!" He finally shouted through the pouring rain, defening on the rocks. "We should get back!" They would share a nest together. She would never have to worry about her nightmares because he would be there for her. And as for him, Northwind was perfectly content to have her warm body next to his.

[lily ♫]

Lilythorn padded out of camp with a smile on her face. "Are you coming, Chasmpaw?" she called behind her. She looked forward once more. Northwind. Of course. Why had she came back out of the camp? The rain did not bother her. It seemed to be healing her wounds. She hoped that Northwind would not notice her, but, he was heading for camp. Heading her way. He wouldn't know that she had shot her own feelings down, repeling them like oil and water, or perhaps, magnets.

[LYNX ♥]

"'Scuse me?" Chasmpaw called from up ahead. "I think it is you who should be tagging along like a duckling, or a crusty elder!" He challenged, gleefully dashing off again. The big tabby knew the training arena by heart. So many times he'd been flung into those stone walls. It was those times he was most thankful for moss, thick, cushoning moss. Softing the hard blows. Laughing at these falsely romantic thought about a plant, Chasmpaw put extra strength into his long strides. He'd beat Lilythorn this time! He was almost a warrior! The thought kept racing through his mind.
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Lynxstar smiled. "Exactly." the she-cat smiled, shivering slightly as the rain began to plop down around them. "Except," She winked,"I could most easily smoosh you, or whack you away, or brace myself and lock my joints. There are many ways to avoid a smaller attacker. You have to be swift and agile, zooming in, nipping, clawing, dashing away. Always watch their claws, because chances are, they won't want to bend their necks to bite, because chances are, you'll fling yourself on their back." She grinned. "So what happens when I'm on the offence?" SHe asked, not waiting a moment before galopping to Flamingpaw and swatting her, claws shealthed.

[lily ♫]

"Well, I wasn't paying attention!" she insisted, which was quite true. All her worrying that Northwind would spot her, embarass her... She was a mess! She instantly spotted Lynxstar, a wide grin spreading on her face. "Lynxstar! Flamingpaw!" she called, waving her tail at them, her grin not fading. They were her family...or so it seemed. Lynxstar acted like a mother, though Lilythorn was just a few moons younger than her. Flamingpaw, a quiet little sister, adorably in love with Chasmpaw. She chuckled at the thought. Then it hit her. Poor Flamingpaw, her training was going almost as slow as Abysspaw's. Flamingpaw would be jealous of Chasmpaw, becoming a warrior so soon. Then again, that was how life in a Clan worked.

xoxo

Flamingpaw jumped as Lilythorn called to her and her mentor. She smiled at Lilythorn and Chasmpaw, throwing a side glance at Lynxstar. Say a word...and I'll kill you. is seemed to say. "Hi Lilythorn!" she called to the deputy. She waved her tail enthusiatically.

[LYNX ♥]

Chasmpaw chuckled, fleeing to the clearing, and quite surprised to find Flamingpaw and Lynxstar, hearing his mentor call them from behind. "Hey there Pretty girl, Mother," He acknowledged them both playfully, winking at Flamingpaw. "So watcha gonna do with us Ma'am?" He drawled, lowerly his lids boredly. "Ya want me to whoop ya myself or'd ya rather I whoop her?" He asked with a half grin, half smirk painted over his handsome face. He turned to Lynxstar,"C'mon Mama, us uglies gotta stick together and show the pretty ones what we're all about." He poked his tougue out to let the rain trickle down his throat.
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Lynxstar smiled and dipped her head to her deputy and her foster-child. Rolling her dull amber lights at his cockiness. "Shut yer trap Tom," She retorted jokingly, mokcing his arrogent drawl. "You'm just let us here mentors decide who will be whooping you," She purred and turned to Lilythorn. "I was just telling Flamingpaw about defeating bigger cats, let's put her to the test," She suggested in her own wicked manner.

[lily ♫]

Lilythorn nodded. "Sounds good. I'm sure she'll whoop his butt." she mewed, flicking Chasmpaw with her tail, letting out a small laugh. "And we," she gestured to herself and her leader. "Can catch up." she finished, pointing towards a spot out of the way of the apprentices, that would make it easy to whisper without being heard.

xoxo

Flamingpaw smiled gleefully as Lilythorn praised her more than she deserved. She look at Chasmpaw with mock hatred. "You know I'm going to beat you." she meowed, a smile popping onto her face before she was finished speaking. She stuck her tongue out at him, her eyes flying to her mentor's eyes, looking for encouragement.

[LYNX ♥]

Chasmpaw glared and lashed his tail. "It's good to know you have faith in me. I love the crowd gathering to root me on," He muttered, glancing at Flamingpaw. Giving a charmingly crooked grin, he bowed. "Good Luck, Beautiful." Looking up, he hardly gave Lilythorn time to get out of the court, or for Lynxstar to encourage Flamingpaw. Instead, he threw himself at his opponent, his mind on nothing but becoming a warrior. He threw himself at her and softly set his paw over her throat. "I win," He whispered, backing away, laughing. "Should I give you a fair change this time?"
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Lynxstar smiled at Flamingpaw, but said nothing. Chasmpaw really did deserve to win, for all the extra effort he put into his training, where Flamingpaw was not ready to be done. She was younger, too, so this would simply be good practice for her. Chuckling softly when she saw Chasmpaw leap on and 'kill' her, she shouted out. "Hey! Play fair here, buddy!" She yowled, glancing reassuringly at Flamingpaw.

[leafy]

losty <33 <33

his laugh was so enchanting, so real, it made her heart race. lostdesire opened her mouth, and a strange noice emmitted from it. Her eyes widened in surprise at the pleasant sound coming out of her mouth. That was called, laughed, or so she thought. the she-cat laughed aloud at herself, who was still laying on the ground pressed against northy. until he jumped up...then tumbled back down again into the mud. it splattered all over the two of them and losty jumped up, "northy, you....you spazz!" she purred, stomping around in the mud gleefully. one day, she'd have his kits and she'd always be with him, and he with her. it was perfect, a happily ever after, but better. she heard his voice calling to her, "okay!" lostdesire trotted after him, and towards the camp where she'd cuddle next to him in their nest.

losty to camp

[lily ♫]

Flamingpaw sniffed the air like a snob. Thanks sooo much Lynx. I feeeel your encouragement. she meowed in her head. She glared at Chasmpaw as he attacked her and 'killed' her. "GET OFF OF ME!!!" she screeched at him before he backed away. She coughed badly, seeming like she had had the air knocked out of her. She prayed silently that Chasmpaw was distracted and slammed into him, attempting to knock him over.

xoxo

Lilythorn rolled her eyes. "Apprentices these days." she mewed quietly to Lynxstar, laughter in her eyes. The laughter quickly left her eyes as concern to its place. Flamingpaw's coughing scared her and reminded her of the harder part of Clan life. Disease. As Flamingpaw slammed into Chasmpaw, Lilythorn looked surprised. It was all a distraction!

[LYNX ♥]

Chasmpaw looked at Flamingpaw and her ferosity, blinking. "Sorry, jee-" He cut off his sneer to leap away from her sudden lauch, amber light wide with surprise. Leaping in the air, over Flamingpaw, he dealt her a cuff to her ribs as he went, slapping the ground with his paws, the propper way to land. "Hold up!" He called to Flamingpaw, padding over. "You want to know what? I learned to best way to land, whether it's someone kicks you in the gut and you go flying, or you leap over someone, the best way to come back to earth is to slap the ground with your pads, and make your joints weightless, so they can bend freely and take away the jolt of the fall." He winked and backed away again. "Lemme see if you can do it." He mewed, "I'll slide at you and try and knock your paws out from under you, and you've gotta make the highest leap you can, then land like a told you." He nodded and ran at her, ducking his head down and diving to the ground, aimed at her paws.
-x-x-x-
Lynxstar chuckled and dipped her head to her deputy, then slowly retreated to behind the stones lining the arena. "Come Lilythorn, leave them to their training. I think Chasmpaw can teach her more than I." She winked and leapt over the boulders, flicking her tail for the ginger she-cat to follow, so they could gossip and chatter without the younger cats becoming distracted.

[sandpoppy]

Mistakenpaw launched himself at his mentor, he didn't get a good grip with his claw for fear he would hurt her.